Inexplicable

  Well I've been really hesitant to make this post. Because I don't mean to make people feel bad. Nor do I wish to make people upset with me. But please understand, this is how many Aspies feel. And probably plagues more than just Aspies.
  Loneliness. We've all felt it. We all know it. Some more deeply than others. Some more often than others. It can be a touchy subject. Because someone can say "I am really lonely" and friends/family may say "Don't you have me/us? Don't I/we count?" What some people fail to realize is that there are several levels of loneliness. There is more than just being physically alone.
  I believe most people are lonely on at least one level. Or at least have been in some degree. And what exactly are the levels? Well I've discovered about 8 forms of it in my experience. 1) Physically 2) Romantically 3) Emotionally 4) Mentally 5) Spiritually 6) In consciousness and thought (which is really hard to explain) 7) in general relationships and 8) the inexplicable...hence the subject line of this post.
  Unfortunately I believe that many Aspies cover all 8 levels. And I know of many normal people who cover most of them too. I'd love to "explain" what the inexplicable form is...but it really can't be done...hence the wording. But my best guestimate it is possibly a combination of the other 7. And in doing that it's magnified greatly. I'd love to go into all 8 in more detail. But I'll leave that for the reader to research. And some of it is pretty obvious anyways.
  I can say for myself that I cover most of them. Thankfully I do have family and friends so I don't lack general relationships and I'm not always physically alone either. And as for myself...I don't want pity. I don't want people saying "aww I'm sorry" or "Is there anything I can do to help?". Because to me the sorry part is just cliche and has lost all meaning. And the helping part...not a lot any one single person can do. But I believe most Aspies appreciate the concern and sentiment. And they appreciate it even more when a person takes the time to sit down and really try to understand...though the Aspie knows deep down that they usually cannot. Aspie thing or not it is how I personally feel. And my heart goes out to others who feel the same way.